I've struggled with coming up with things to do the past several nights. Tonight, I decided I'd update my neglected blog. There's so many things that I should have put on here that I didn't. But, the important thing is that I'm here today to update and possibly vent a little.
First, I'm very excited that I think I might have figured out what I truly, in my heart, want to do with my life career-wise. I think I want to work in non-profit environments. I particularly want to working connecting the community to the non-profit. I love everything about 'giving back' and service. My job here at CELTS along with my other service and volunteer ventures have led me to this conclusion. I currently serve as the Program Manager of the Adopt-A-Grandparent program and although I've only been doing the job for 3 weeks today, I love everything about it. I love that I get to guide others and myself to provide opportunities for the Berea campus and the local residents of Berea. It's such a fulfilling position. I enjoy going to work even with all the stress from school. That's infinitely important to me personally.
Next, Lucas and I have set our tentative date to May 18, 2013. As of now it looks the most ideal date but we may have to do some minor changes because I can't miss my sister's graduation so we may push it back just a couple of weeks. I'm SUPER excited!! We haven't let many people know since we're not 100% sure about it but we'll get to that this summer when things slow down a bit. I'm soo ready. I think the thing that I struggle with here the most is not feeling needed by anyone. It's new. I never grew up having alone time. My siblings, parents, friends and boyfriend were always there keeping me busy and never leaving me a free second. My siblings most of all make it hard for me. We spent almost every free moment together at home and now often times I'm the one asking if someone has time for me. I'm adjusting though. Slowly, I'm gaining control of my emotions that seem to overreact about it. I've been thinking lately that this may also be time/sign that I'm able to turn my attention towards God and spend some time on him. What am I doing right now? Avoiding that. I must set goals to spend more time with Him or the Bible. That alone would probably do wonders for my some unstable emotions.
http://www.biblegateway.com/resources/readingplans/comprehensive.php
Here's a 365 day reading plan for the Bible. Maybe I'll start trying to do this.
BUT, since I think I would prefer to read the New Testament first, I just on site that if you read 3 chapters a day, you will have read the New Testament in 3 months.
That means if I read 2 chapters per night I would finish it in a little over 4 months. Sounds like a plan to me! Think I'll stick with that reading plan. Now, when to start? I'll decide that later. Maybe tonight is I'm feeling froggy.
Now, to my classes this semester. Abnormal psychology is going to be a challenge. I'm a little, okay A LOT, nervous about it. No study guide=Megan freaking out. We'll see what happens next Monday. If I flunk that one then I'll be worried. Anatomy is exactly the same as last semester which is nice. Espanol es muy dificil. Mi nervousa porque mi profesora tiene muchas expectativas. I'm not sure is those sentences were completely correct, but you get the idea. As for psychology of women and gender? I REALLY like it. Wendy Williams is an awesome professor who makes her expectations very clear and understands that we have lives outside of her classroom.
Another thing, my summer of service is kicking my butt. I'm not too sure what I'm going to. I have applications to two camps in Nashville. I think it'd be fun but I really hope I have to stay at the camp during the week otherwise I don't know if I'm going to be able to do it because I'm not telling my parents that I'm staying there all summer. No way. Plus, I honestly don't want to until we are married. Weekends are one thing. A whole summer is a completely different story. I honestly wish I would do one here in Berea while taking a class. At least part of one, then do the other half elsewhere.
Goals for myself
-Continue my current workout with modifications if my back gets progressively worse
-Begin reading two chapters of the Bible per night OR 14 chapters per week which is the equivalent
-Maintain good grades, obviously
-Find ways to improve in my position as Program Manager. Possibly as for feedback from team members.
-Don't get comfort in my relationships. Keep pushing them so they'll prosper.
-Continue to write in this blog... or make one just for my Bible readings to help fulfill that goal.
Now, I must call my mommy. Be back when I can.
